I'm so completely overwhelmed. The assistants on our staff meet every Tuesday. During our meeting this morning, there was a knock on the door and suddenly in walked most of the rest of our department, as well as associates from multiple other areas. They were coming to let me know that I was nominated for and selected as Associate of the Month. It was one of the most overwhelming, moving and also uncomfortable (in a good way, but still uncomfortable) things I've experienced. They read from the multiple nominations that were written on my behalf (some of the content of which proved to me how very long ago the process was had been started), and although it was hard for me to deal with that much attention, it felt so good to hear the things they had to say. I do know that my coworkers appreciate me - they don't really hesitate to give praise - but to know that they went to that much trouble for me was really uplifting. Although I may be frustrated, it's so good to know that my efforts are recognized.
Although, getting that much praise also makes me feel unworthy. Hearing how perfect they think I am only makes my flaws stand out more to me. I don't think I'm as great as they think I am, and it's a lot to live up to. Which is good, because it's motivating, but it's also stressful. Because I don't know if I ever will be able to.
